finally! can log on to blogger alr. intended to blog ytd, but just couldnt log in.

it's my nieces birthday ytd(: the twins! celebrated it on sunday, and there's a 2kg elmo cake! haha. elmo's cute, but the cake is just too much alr la. i think we ate less than half of it. haha. they got lots of presents also. we shared a candy pop-up house and two stools for the kids, and my dad got them a doll house(: all of them damn cute la! wonder why last time they never invent all these things lo! i envious of the children nowadays. lol.

ytd was the last day of all tests, had chem and chinese. chinese was tough! didnt have time to finish, but chem was crap. i finished the one hour paper in 25 mins, and went to slp. arghh~ chem should have lend some time to my chinese test lo. sian. i hope i will do well lo.

went to wan qing yuan just now, the so-called sun zhong shan hse last time. it was damn boring la! i thought that the place was big, with huge gardens and yards, and in the end it was just a small hse with a tiny weeny garden. we were each given a worksheet, and are told to fill in the ungiven info. which was super boring. -.-" i think i wasted the $1.50 dollars and my precious time.

it's the last week of school alr, and then it's the one week holiday. and guess what's next? end of year exams!! shit, so fast la, there's only 5 weeks left, and revision? i've done nothing. study study study, somebody motivate me leh. sian. i've been waiting for 8 months alr, and still no one. haha.

and i cant wait for saturday(: doreen and her new hairstyle! ^^

thx to that inspector, and we finally talked to my mum about us. she wasnt happy about it, but at least we told her. and i actually feel quite relax now, but still, a little weird, cos i dont know how should i face her. everything seems fine, only when we are with my dad. she's going to tell me dad, i by then i know i will be dead. i bet he'll slap me, like wad my mum said, he has alot of expectations of me. cos im the only one i can rely on.

my mum arent supportive of us, and she doesnt want us to continue. dont think we can even meet up anymore. im like so dead, but so relieved. how weird the feeling la. cant explain. im just afraid of the moment my dad know the truth. so, i'll enjoy my life now while he still don't know about it.

and i hope everything will be okay soon. and plus, i promise to study hard okay. no more 30 plus anymore. i'll aim for top 20. and i seriously hope i'll succeed. give me a chance la, e3 peeps(:

how much do i miss him? alot alot alot(: haha.

alot like the no. of stars in the sky, the amt of water in the ocean, no. of grass in the field, no. of students in the school, no. of hair on my head, no. of petals of the chrysantheumum flower, amt. of dust in my house, no. of people in china, no. of wrinkles on my father's face, amt. of air in the environment. and blah and blah.

talking on the phone now, he kept bugging me to go back to my room. he says i cannot concentrate on talking with him, must go back my room. so i will go now. lol. byebye.

there's caning ytd, 5 or 6 pple, jac said it was cos of a girl, and a guy wanted her to be his girlfriend, and the girl's boyfriend and co. beat the guy up and the guy had to stay in hospital. so frightening eh. but the caning part was like -.-"

it's like everyone's so immune to it, including me, and jac too. like me, jac in sec 1 and 2 was like public caning leh! dont dare to see, everytime cover the eyes. especially 1st time, woah! caning ah, so 'lucky', gotto see public caning. and now? we hope the caning will faster end soon, and stop wasting our time, cos we want to go to lessons or go home. it's like we such good students also 'immune' to it alr, how about those who are being caned lo? its only at that point of time, woah! very pain, and after that? who the hell will remember about it.

i see no point of public caning alr. its like totally useless now. and i seriously think that we should get someone to cane accurately.

SS test today! and i think the test is damn difficult, but this is the first time i wrote my answers on another sheet of paper, even though a bit only. haha. a little improvement and achievement la, huh. LOL. i hope i can pass la, but look like a dream to me, cos its just damn hard lo.

mr lee told us about the competition thing, about wad, he's not sure too, and we are told to participate in it. weird huh? haha. there's 8 of us, lynn, bala, elaine, jac, clar, rueylin, kenley and me. he said he handpicked us, cos he believe we've got different talents in each and every of us. LOL. so what's my talent? haha, maybe? overslp? eat sushi? cant think of any others. hehe.

went J8 later with shir and chenying, went to see clothes and check wanna buy anot. found a green striped shirt in U2, thought of getting it for my mum, cos her birthday's in september. chenying said it was quite nice, but shir says it's not. so in the end, still didnt buy it. wonder still got time to get things for her anot lo. haha.

and nina, happy birthday(: i hope you like that wet kiss! hehe. and i bought your present! not special though, cos i cant think of anything to buy alr, just hope it wont be spoilt by tmr. pray hard. haha.

saw my cousin today at J8's female toilet. just want to say, she's 30! but she looks 24/25 lo. and she's a mother of a 2 years old girl! she looks damn young la, to me at least. haha. ashley's so xing fu to have such a young mum(: LOL.

again, one of my relatives passed away two days ago. im not really related to her, but that she's my grandma's sister. so far right, but nvm. it was like, i went to her house since young every chinese new year. that time, she was damn fit, still strong and able to walk. later, she was to sit in a wheelchair, and had difficulty talking. and just this year, she was lying on a mattress, and her body looked as thin as paper, and im not kidding. her family wasnt even clear what she wants. she cant talk, but with some simple gestures, my aunties knew wad she was thinking and wad she want to do. but her family was like ignoring her, and just said she tired la, can you all pls go out.

and now, im going to her funeral later on, just an hour later.

life's just so cruel. so why i are we born, to be tortured just like that, and die later on. this is total meaningless.

i'll do wadeva i can now. just to be sure that i wont regret when im older. backsomer, back hollow, what's so frightening? i'll just give it a shot, and soon, i believe i will conquer my fear.

can you believe it la! i got 15/20 for my geography test! and i cried like siao in class. haha. mr lee still say wad, 'cheeling, i want some more surprises for you.' -.-" like a last time very stupid like that lo. chenying say i kai qiao, getting clever alr, and shir say i lucky. haha. i prefer wad chenying say la, of cos, and i know its the truth. buahaha. but i doubt miracles will happen again. LOL.

my cousin came to s'pore on tuesday from guangzhou, came here to tour lo. but my dad is just bringing them all over s'pore to eat. today eat bahkuteh, tmr eat chicken rice, the next next day eat prawn mee. very boring. he some more brought them to pulau ubin. like there's anything to see there lo. haha. i pity my relatives la.

he playing bball match now, all the best(: haha.

its 16 months alr, that means its 1 year and 4 months! time really flies, and i carn imagine it has been so long alr(: haha. these 16 mths have been meaningful and very memorable for me. loads of laughter, love and joy and with some problems and quarrels.

sorry about today at J8 though. my so-not-enthu mood. but u made me laugh again! wad i step on shit la! then i so ganchiong, then actually is lizard shit! scare me like hell! haha. and the 5.5km walk, gotta kill you! so tiring and hungry la! u said 10 mins walk will reach toa payoh, and i actually believed you! -.-"

enough of that, i'll talk about school. mrs ang wasnt in school ytd and today, and since mr lee dint come ytd also, we got 5 free periods ytd! woohoo~ BUT, ms leong came in. haha. so sad la.

my Amaths and Emaths finally getting better alr, maybe its just cos of the topics la. but im happy alr! finally something i will score well! my sciences, can go die alr. haha. always fail lo. wanted to ask my cousin's about it, but like always no chance like that. maybe ive just got to study myself!

and i realise that, jac's voice is very man, or should i say SUPER man(: haha.

havent ben updating, wasnt in the mood la. was damn distracted with playing my gameboy. LOL. ive been playing pokemon again. siao rite! haha. but it suddenly seemed so interesting again. hehe. im playing yellow version. and i still dont like pikachu, so noisy and not cute la. haha.

other than this, ive got not much to blog about, maybe i got last in class for chemistry again? hais. ive got to buck up la, but how, who knows.

and, my phone is spoiled, who got the kind soul to lend me your old but USABLE phone?! grrr, i carn stand my old phone[the one older than the spoilt phone], the select button is spoilt la, cannot even msg-.-

went out with weiting on friday, we both werent in the shopping mood la, so we just walk walk around. yups. but we still bought things(: haha. she bought a shorts lo, then i bought a useless bright pink hairclip, a pair of green slippers, and a purple shorts. she was having gastric pain la, and wasnt feeling well, and i was having muscle aches all over. so long never go out with her alr. haha.

after met erkee and bishan, went to his friend's birthday party. it was sick, so paiseh. dunno wad to do also. aftertt play mahjong, i dont know why my face started to get red la. heaty i bet. and plus i wasnt feeling well, so i went home(:

im going to get a backpack, so that i can get motivated and concentrate on my school work. haha. i hope that works(:

Countdown to 30 September: 59

bala got a new nick name, BALA FU(: cos mr lee says he's always trying to catch ms fu's attention during ss lecture! the nickname damn cute la! sounds like 'balaku'. hehe.

chem test was sick today. i finished in 20-25 mins? crap. i bet i was the first to finish and fell aslp lo. haha. i definitely will fail! arghh. stupid la. all those salts and acids? so complicated. got to have tuition from my cousin this sunday! if not, i can say buy buy to my grades alr. hais.

gym training today was damn tiring. did schuschunova for 2 hours! siao. schuschunova is a move where u jump and open up your straddle, swing your leg to the back, and straighten up the whole body, and piak onto the floor, with your hand supporting in front. sounds easy? i thought so too. LOL. but the trainer kept telling us to do. and poof~ TWO HOURS GONE! and my hands are like soft la, tried doing a handstand after that, and my right hand gave way, and i fell. -.-"

going out weiting after school tmr! im going to buy a backpack to bring to school! yay. finally. hope that the backpack will give me motivation in studying! haha.

Countdown to 30 September: 61

went to watch 'Pirates Of the Carribean: Dead Man's Chest' with doreen, nina, ian, wenqiang and jianxing. FINALLY. i wanted to watch it badly la, but due to trainings for gym competition, didnt have time to watch. was surprised that all 6 of us havent watch it yet la, the show was like started damn long ago. haha. maybe we're all training hard for gym. hehe.

the show is nice, although abit long, and sat until my neck, butt and back ache. johnny depp rocks la! damn funny. the show's great. kept laughing. when the show started, it shows the film name, 'Pirates Of the Carribean', and the guys made fun of it, and changed to 'Pirates Of the L**J***Bean'. alright, nth to be proud. they are sick.

ate dinner(: KFC fish-ole! haha. nice nice! we dapao and eat at the bishan interchange. all finish eating alr, except nina, whose ALWAYS the slowest. haha. the guys did gym stunts, at the interchange. haha. backsomer, press up, roundoff, backflip. haha. crazy alr. but looking at the faces of passer-bys, the shock and surprise faces, funny! haha.

home by 930(: and see my dad play mahjong on the internet. use my com! haha. never ask for permission one. sad. LOL.

im back! with a sprained neck! grrr. was doing my backsomer on saturday, with help from mrs keong, and guess wad, i flew! im a bird la, what do u expect. haha. and i landed on my neck on the spring. shit! i was like struggling la. who woundn't? and finally its ok. cant move, but at least it wasnt as pain as i just pia down that time. and now, my neck cant move at all, and my right side is swollen. haha. so sad.

everyone's teasing me la. in school, at home, at my cousin's place. the worse is my cousin la! say wad, can dance robot dance alr la, wahpiang! u look like like penguin/model/ballet dancer, wahsei! u really very stiff hoh. some gave me advices(: take insurance from the school. bu na bai bu na. LOL. and they told me to go for Xray also. maybe i'll see how it will become tmr? yups.

many things have been happening. so we've decided not meet up for 2 months. and i'll wait for the day 30 september. i know that day will be great! hehe. i'll play hard for this two months, if not it will be boring to be single again. -.-" and i'll definitely miss you(:

The way to love anything is to realize that it might be lost.

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